Throat

There are SO many things going on that I have written numerous blog posts in my head about, but my hand pain continues unabated (I've been having trouble getting on the medication that is supposed to help, a story for later...) so I still can't type very much. Arg! I've decided to try and post shorter than usual posts a bit more often, so that I can at least get things down on paper so to speak. First up: a (likely final) update on the LPR. (There are 3 other parts to this story: 123.)

This all started roughly 8 years ago, and began with voice problems and a chronic cough (of the choking/sputtering till you want to vomit variety) that cropped up after a bad bout of bronchitis (pneumonia?) that I had for the better part of a year around 2008. It was pretty mysterious in the beginning, and I thought surely it would go away, but it's only gotten worse. No treatments have really worked, and I continue to have major issues with LPR and my voice (I can only talk for 30-60 minutes before my throat gets sore and hoarse and I have to stop or else I start getting coughing fits and losing my voice). (Note: In case you're not an LPR sufferer and are confused, LPR is a type of reflux that doesn't give you heartburn, but rather throat, esophagus, and vocal issues.)

As anyone who has this condition will tell you, LPR and specifically the vocal problems it causes have a significant impact on my life - apparently the quality of life impact is even medically documented. It severely limits my ability to communicate, and it also means I can't use voice dictation software regularly to compensate for the joint pain in my hands restricting my ability to type. It deepens my social isolation, intertwining with my being housebound a lot of the time, since I can't talk on the phone or Skype anyone for more than about 30 mins (talking in person requires less projecting so I can often do bit more if it's somewhere quiet), and even if someone wants to come over and visit, one-on-one visits where I have to talk a lot lead to me getting a really sore, hoarse throat long before a typical visit would be done. Often, we just have to watch Netflix so there's not as much talking, unless there are other people to take the conversational burden off me. As someone who LOVES talking and time with people (and writing!), it flat out sucks. Obviously enough, it also affects the amount of work I can do on Textillia, which is already frustratingly small to me.

Most of you regular readers can skip this post unless you're just curious - it's time for another update on my throat issues. I know there are tons of people out there struggling with LPR (hello!) and they seem to find their way to my blog in numbers that are pretty astonishing, so I wanted to share what's been going on lately. If you want to read further into my experiences with this, the next most recent post was at the end of 2013 and is here, and my first post from the start of 2013 is here.

Most of my usual blog readers can probably skip this post - it's an update about one of my health conditions that will probably be totally boring to most of you, but many of us who are dealing with this tricky condition have found it helpful to share our experiences. 

This is a follow up post to my initial post about LPR and laryngeal granuloma. If you want the full history, or to read the many comments and updates from other people dealing with LPR, please start there!

[EDIT: there is now a second update here.]

My previous post left off nearly a year ago - how time flies... 

This building is part of VGH, you wouldn't know how pretty it is from the outside. Sitting there, it was hard not to notice I was the youngest person for miles around who didn't actually work there. I was there to get a second opinion on my laryngeal granuloma.

Waiting for an appointment at VGH

[EDIT: I've posted a follow up to this here.]

[EDIT: there is now a second update here.]

[EDIT: I've just posted a final update on my LPR adventures. I'm going to lock the comments on this and the other LPR posts now, as I really want people to use the LPR Facebook Group instead of posting here (or emailing me) - you'll get much better responses and support there! ]

And now time for some health catch up...

Ok, so I keep hearing people talking about "ease" and moving towards doing what comes with more "ease". The work I was doing before was mostly things that I felt came pretty naturally to me (being organized, mediating between different stakeholders, writing emails, planning), but work didn't feel full of "ease" by any means.

Socializing didn't feel easy. Taking care of myself didn't feel easy. Even when I left my job in the spring, NOTHING felt easy.

Resting didn't feel easy, thinking about what I wanted to do with my life didn't feel easy, I felt fucking stressed and anxious all the time, in between trips and visitors all through the summer. I tried to go take art classes, and that all fell apart quickly. I did creative projects at home. I floundered. And then a couple weeks ago, it suddenly hit me. 

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